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[pantryslut]

The more time I spend on FetLife, the more I begin to revert to my idea that (despite any play or publishing or other professional or volunteer credits to the contrary) I'm not a member of the 'scene,' I just really like rough sex.

And spanking people.

And knives.

And...oh, forget it. But you know what I mean.

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[ishai-wallace.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's not really what I mean. I too feel pretty good about my professional/political/volunteer experiences - it's just, not matter what I do, I always feel like I could do more. I too have had sex and work cross paths, including a photo shoot for SSSpread, so it's not that i am fundamentally opposed to this, it's just that the work I currently do, in schools is appropriately separate from my sex life (although I do manage to find work in schools for friends, lovers and fuck buddies, so I suppose it overlaps that way).

I also encounter these conversations in many places and am often left wondering who really feels like they belong. All too often, I don't think it is nearly enough of us.

As far as I can tell, you are not a misanthrope, just discerning.

[pantryslut.livejournal.com]

Discerning sounds ever so much more positive, thank you :)

I'm trying very hard at the moment to get over my innate tendency to think I could be doing more on any given issue or project (and, accordingly, to beat myself up and/or tell myself I am a slacker, etc., which doesn't help me do more but sure helps me feel worse). Twins have been a blessing in disguise when it comes to that.