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Oct. 31st, 2012 12:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pantryslutSo I kind of had a thing over the weekend where I felt like I'd discovered that I'd wasted a lot of time and energy on the projects of people who turned out never to have held me in the kind of respect that my work for them deserved. Yeah, I know, I'm being cryptic (and convoluted). I'm still feeling that way -- um, not respected that is, not cryptic and convoluted -- with the added dose of thems that did respect my work are recently dead and it's that time of year when we mourn our dead and so now it's all a-churn in my head and my solar plexus.
I don't know if my cryptic assessment is actually true or not. I have issues with feeling underestimated and/or taken for granted and I recognize that.* Sometimes the data supports this (see: On Our Backs) and sometimes it doesn't. And sometimes it's hard to tell.
But yeah. That's where my head is at, on and off, right now. Hopefully the feeeelings wave will pass soon.
* I also have issues with having issues, because that's the kind of person I am. :P
I don't know if my cryptic assessment is actually true or not. I have issues with feeling underestimated and/or taken for granted and I recognize that.* Sometimes the data supports this (see: On Our Backs) and sometimes it doesn't. And sometimes it's hard to tell.
But yeah. That's where my head is at, on and off, right now. Hopefully the feeeelings wave will pass soon.
* I also have issues with having issues, because that's the kind of person I am. :P
