unproductive part 2

[pantryslut]

I have a migraine. I think it stems from a stiff neck, which is why it's not going away like it should. (Why am I at the computer with a migraine? Because I'm tired of lying down in the dark. Lying down in the dark is boring.)

Still can't figure out the ftp thing for work.

Am afraid to open Quark Express to work on Problem Child. Or to get too deeply into any project at all, really, because after all I have a migraine.

But I did figure out why I always feel like I'm lazy. I'm a sprinter, not a marathon runner. I can do lots of little things in a row, but I can't do one big thing in a sustained manner without feeling worn down.

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[wild-irises.livejournal.com]

After a long on-paper discussion about this with a group of people, I've come to the conclusion that almost everyone thinks they're lazy. If you were a marathon runner, you'd have a story about how you were lazy because you didn't multitask. I used to think laziness was simply a myth, but I've now been around a few truly lazy people, and I've come to think it's a threat/fear/demon the rest of us beat ourselves up with, and that true laziness verges on being a disability.

[pantryslut.livejournal.com]

It's funny, because I'm not really anxious about being lazy -- it's not something I fear, or feel ashamed of. I'm comfortable with it.

Except that external evidence seems to indicate that I am not actually lazy.

What I *am*, most definitely and without a doubt, is a procrastinator.