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Jan. 15th, 2014 02:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pantryslut* I hate thinking about how to list my education on job applications. For the same reason that this info is not on my FB page (no, it's not privacy concerns). I think I am extra-touchy about it all right now because, well, where did I meet Steven again? That's right. Can we pretend those two years just didn't exist? Not while I can still read Cyrillic, I suspect. Oh well.
* Besides, they were very nice years actually. They just ended poorly. (I sense a theme.)
* I am actually not writing so many f-locked posts. I am writing many private ones, though. I guess I am feeling even more shy and tender than I thought. I like to look all considered and composed and reflective. And I think instead I sound bitter and/or stupid. (See above for an example.)
* I could probably use a therapist soon, just to have someone to talk to and sort out these feelings with. So that I don't *actually* become bitter. I am not looking yet but should you happen to have a rec, I'll take it.
* Because I'm not actually bitter, I don't think. But I'm not all better. And also we are still in a slow descent downhill into ending up in my parents' basement or something.
* I will be substantially better when I find a job!
* Today on the bus, someone tapped me on the shoulder and immediately started asking for advice on her back pain. Had I ever had back pain? Just awakened in the morning and pow, back pain? Was it related to her period starting, maybe? Especially if it was extra-heavy? Even though the pain was in her upper back, though? Should she see a doctor? (She should see a doctor.) I am not the kind of person who usually gets solicited for medical advice on the bus. I hope she feels better soon.
* Off to make some administrative progress on my change of marital status now.
* Besides, they were very nice years actually. They just ended poorly. (I sense a theme.)
* I am actually not writing so many f-locked posts. I am writing many private ones, though. I guess I am feeling even more shy and tender than I thought. I like to look all considered and composed and reflective. And I think instead I sound bitter and/or stupid. (See above for an example.)
* I could probably use a therapist soon, just to have someone to talk to and sort out these feelings with. So that I don't *actually* become bitter. I am not looking yet but should you happen to have a rec, I'll take it.
* Because I'm not actually bitter, I don't think. But I'm not all better. And also we are still in a slow descent downhill into ending up in my parents' basement or something.
* I will be substantially better when I find a job!
* Today on the bus, someone tapped me on the shoulder and immediately started asking for advice on her back pain. Had I ever had back pain? Just awakened in the morning and pow, back pain? Was it related to her period starting, maybe? Especially if it was extra-heavy? Even though the pain was in her upper back, though? Should she see a doctor? (She should see a doctor.) I am not the kind of person who usually gets solicited for medical advice on the bus. I hope she feels better soon.
* Off to make some administrative progress on my change of marital status now.
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Date: 2014-01-16 12:20 am (UTC)And I remain quite confident that you aren't going to wind up in your parents' basement.