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[pantryslut]

Maybe I'm just tired. Maybe it's top crash. Maybe it's boredom. Or all three. It's not that I'm unhappy today, it's that there's a dark undertow that I am swimming, swimming, swimming against.

It probably does not help that I am going down to Newman tomorrow, to spend the day with my grandparents. Yes, those grandparents. My parents and youngest sister will also be there, and I'm looking forward to seeing them, but as I said to my mother earlier this week, I will see the grands only when there are other family members around to spread the attention out a little bit.

I have Monday off for a doctor's appointment. I think it's a good thing I asked for the whole day.

Comments

[postmaudlin.livejournal.com]

hang in, hang in, hang in.

do you have my celly number?

anything i can do?

[pantryslut.livejournal.com]

I have your cell. (Speaking of which, mine is working again. But always better to use the home line.) It's not a crisis, I promise. Just tired. Think golden-light thoughts or something for me :)

[postmaudlin.livejournal.com]

you know i will.

[katasutra.livejournal.com]

It's not that I'm unhappy today, it's that there's a dark undertow that I am swimming, swimming, swimming against.

I really like how you worded this ... I've been feeling this way as well recently, and haven't been able to find words for it.

Glad there are gonna be other folks around to do some buffering ... and glad, too, you'll have Monday for some further recovery time...

Ugh!

[fightingtiger.livejournal.com]

I *know* that feeling. I am so sorry, but sounds like you've got good friends there (and a day off, I'm really envious of that!)
Hang in there!

Re: Ugh!

[pantryslut.livejournal.com]

Yes, I have good friends who never let me fall very far, bless them all.

[manomano.livejournal.com]

Bad relatives are the worst. Good luck. I wish you strength and endurance.

[wordweaverlynn.livejournal.com]

It helps to live a reasonable distance from your more difficult relatives--although frankly I still have trouble with one of the dead ones, and his grave is thousands of miles away. When they're dead, distance doesn't matter.

I hope your weekend brightens.