Part Two

[pantryslut]

(still extremely rough, and where are we going, exactly?)

Fat girls and shoes. If you're a fat girl, you already know about shoes. If you're not fat, maybe this is still a secret. An open one. Want stellar shoe advice? Ask a fat girl. Fat girls are into shoes in a crazy fabulous way. Fat girls are into shoes because most fat girls can still wear shoes. They can go shoe shopping with their best girl friends and some home with something fabulous, instead of standing by the dressing room door while everyone else gets to try something on. I am not the first to say this, nor am I the best, but trust me: fat girls and shoes have a special relationship.

A pair of great shoes, like lipstick in just the right shade, can dress up any outfit.

I saw an old friend, a fabulously stylish fat girl, and she told me that her doctor had ordered her out of high heels. If she were a man, she would have said she felt emasculated by her (still stylish) flats. As it was, she waved her hands in the air and said "you know what I mean? Shoes were all I had left!"

You have to understand that my history is different. You have to understand that I have always worn sensible shoes. You have to understand that femininity has always been a foreign territory for me. I have always been locked out of that kingdom. I am gender aphasic,. It's all a jumble of meaningless cues. It's a foreign language, and I have always been bad at every language but my own.

Fat girls and shoes have a special relationship. Except when "girl" is in question, that is.

Comments

[redbird]

I don't have that sort of relationship with shoes either, but you know how girly I'm not. (When my girlfriend told me I'm butch, I saw no reason to doubt her, but it's not an axis I identify on.)